My baby, Bella and I are Christmas 2013, she is my world, my savior |
So let me give you a little background on myself. I have always
struggled with weight even though I was an active child. I played
soccer, marched in the band, all different types of dance including
ballet and just regular acrobats, as well as competitive style
gymnastics. I rode my bike everywhere as a kid, but I was always just
"bigger". Many people through out middle school picked on me, called me
names and some of that even carried through to high school. I always
thought I had a great group of friends, until they turned on me. Rumors
were spread in high school, making me hate every second of being there.
Why do people have to be so cruel? I knew I needed out, that I need a
fresh start somewhere. I ended up in Virginia for college, and graduated
in 2010 with a B.S. in Biology. I never really dated any one which was
fine, I was busy attending events with my sorority, Alpha Sigma Alpha.
Who would have thought, I, the girl who hated girls would join an entire
organization of them!
Goodness! We was some fine ladies. |
My BEATIFUL big and myself at New Years 2014!!! |
Any ways I graduated college in 2010 with that B.S. I mentioned above,
and struggled to find a job as most new graduates do. I did it though,
and I ended up with some fabulous jobs. I actually sound really smart on
paper. I worked for a company temporarily doing research to help
develop a test method for a new product they were developing. I was then
offered a full-time position in a research center performing enzyme
restriction on mass produced synthetic DNA for sequencing purposes. I
left that job for someone I thought I would spend the rest of my life
with. I then ended up with the company I am now at. My job is to analyze
active ingredients in OTC health and beauty care products by HPLC/GC
analysis. Sounds super awesome, but really I test soap. I began working a
lot, and things became rough in my relationship. It soon ended shortly
after I moved, and I found myself scared/lost/confused. I had been blind
sided, just 7 days before I had no place to live, the man who promised
he'd never hurt me told my dad he couldn't wait to marry me. So imagine
the confusion and hurt when he sat me down to say goodbye.
I am lucky enough to have the friends I do, and I moved in with a friend
until I could get back up on my feet and back into my own place. I left
my dog behind because I couldn't take her with me, and I hit a low. I
thought I had my life together, but found myself like a zombie just
roaming through the day, without a purpose. I got myself into my own
place, and I knew right then and there things had to change. It didn't
happen over night, nothing ever does and that was okay. I finally got
Bella back and she helped me more than she'll ever know. Having her
forced me to get up in the morning, forced me to get outside and most
importantly she showered me with the unconditional love I needed.
How could you NOT love that face!?!?! |
And so it began. . . . my journey to become a healthier version of
myself all around. To eat better, to live better and to feel better.
Because, if I cannot love myself and my life then how can I hold any one
else to that?? So here's a little before and after to give you an idea
of just how far I have brought myself . . .
I know, right!?!?! |
So, with all that being said. . . enjoy!
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